I wonder how far this new relationship I build can survive. Its been so rocky, unstable and many fights. Heartache is my constant companion lately, I just don't know what's going on in my mind and what I want.
When my old relationship came crashing down I immediately ran into a new one, just because I felt safe and happiness again. I think it was my mistake I should have let myself heal or cleared my mind before making a decision. Everything happened so fast and now when I look back seems like everything I am doing lately is so wrong.
So many things keep bothering me, makes me feel like I am nothing but a rug where I constantly let people step and bring me down. I just don't have the strength to fight or argue anymore, I just wanna be free and feel free. Just something I realize lately even thou you are happy there are some unhappiness that can destroy that unless you fully let if off you chest. I just need to let all of this off my chest. I really hope it can happen soon as I really can't take it anymore.
In my professional working life, I been doing really great lately and everything seems to be going my way. I just think I should do more to achieve more so I can set a great career growth path. But on the bright side I have a really great boss, a sporting and crazy one that is. She's been so supportive and courage in both my work and personal life. I think that the best one can hope for.
To be continued...