Superior Then Thou

I seriously can’t stand some people who feel they are better then the rest, I just feel like walking up to them and giving them a slap to shake that attitude off.

There is someone I know and she has grown close to me but she has that attitude and it’s driving me mad, I have told her million times but nothing has changed. Right now I have come to a point to where the hate feeling is developing and I know it’s bad, I can’t stand to see, talk to hear her opinions any longer.

I am finding away to tell her off but I just can’t seem to find the right words or way to do so, not forgetting how sensitive she is. The last time I tried to tell her she threw a fit and started to shout and scream at the top of her lungs. DAMMMM

Communication

Everyday we communicate with people be it verbally or written with young, old, different languages and background. Some how we as human still find ways to communicate, but sometimes the most simplest thing is the hardest to communicate it across.

Sometime I don’t know what your problem is or why is it so hard for you’re to tell me the truth of what you feel or want?? I told you many times don’t until I start no to care or bother about you anymore. I been here for you far more then you have for me and anyone can testify to that cause its dam obvious, but yet you still do this.

I am getting bored with all this, can’t you just open up and tell me. I am simple you tell me what you expect and be transparent and don’t keep lingering around expecting for something more then I can give you cause I wont. If I think you are worth it I will try my level best to give all I can for you, I am easy that way. Show me, own up and be a rock not mud.

My heart was crush and shattered into a million pieces from my last love, it’s not easy to heal but thank god I am healing slowly and putting the pieces together back again, if I give my heart away again it has to be to someone who will care, appreciate and be there.

Healed

I do miss you I won’t lie but not as much as I use to, I do care and love you but not more then a friend. I was so stupid to think we could be friends after all that’s happened but I wont say never cause we can only plan but god knows better, so maybe one day we could. I feel a huge set of pain, feelings and fear being lifted off my chest, now I see the bigger picture and all that’s gone down.

“And I hope you find it,

What you're looking for

And I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be

And so much more

And I hope you're happy, wherever you are

I wanted you to know that

And nothing's gonna change that

And I hope you find it”

Life is becoming brighter and getting myself out there doing things I wanted to, going places I wanted to. Making new friends and improving myself is my new goal and target, I will work hard to achieve my goals.

Any to all my newly wed friends congratulations is in order, may you have eternal happiness and be bless with may cute babies. To my bestie thanks for choosing to be the godmother to your baby girl and I hope she likes all the gifts I got her ;)

Regret

This is the feeling I am having, I just regret of how things turned out to be. Lately I have been missing D more then ever, there is this strong feeling of me wanting to hear, see and touch D. I have not had this feeling in awhile now but somehow I been feeling it hard and a lot lately.

Somehow I think I am regretting my decision of breaking up with her and causing her hurt. I know I should just forget it and move on but something within me which is making it hard to do it. I just want to have a nice long talk and giggles with D like we used to.

Sadden with all that’s happened I lost my best friend and comfort, I wish I could turn back time and make it all better. I will just remove one thing from my life and the whole situation will be fixed but there isn’t anything that can make it happen.

One thing I know for sure regret is deadly venom that takes over and controls you. I should have listen to myself and given time before making a decision.

Decisions...Decisions....

I wonder how far this new relationship I build can survive. Its been so rocky, unstable and many fights. Heartache is my constant companion lately, I just don't know what's going on in my mind and what I want.
　
When my old relationship came crashing down I immediately ran into a new one, just because I felt safe and happiness again. I think it was my mistake I should have let myself heal or cleared my mind before making a decision. Everything happened so fast and now when I look back seems like everything I am doing lately is so wrong.

So many things keep bothering me, makes me feel like I am nothing but a rug where I constantly let people step and bring me down. I just don't have the strength to fight or argue anymore, I just wanna be free and feel free. Just something I realize lately even thou you are happy there are some unhappiness that can destroy that unless you fully let if off you chest. I just need to let all of this off my chest. I really hope it can happen soon as I really can't take it anymore.

In my professional working life, I been doing really great lately and everything seems to be going my way. I just think I should do more to achieve more so I can set a great career growth path. But on the bright side I have a really great boss, a sporting and crazy one that is. She's been so supportive and courage in both my work and personal life. I think that the best one can hope for.

To be continued...

Birthday Mumbles

Ok so it 19 January 2012 and that time has come where I become one year older. The past year and coming into the near year I lost everything I was so familiar, comfortable and loved. But I believe it’s made me stronger by helping me be more matured and realized that I need to love myself and stop letting people step or take advantage of my kindness. Sometimes you got to lose the most important thing in your life at the moment in order to see the bigger picture and the flow will be natural. Its was naturally hard at the beginning and it hurt like hell but having friends and family that I could count on made a whole lot of different on how I handle the whole situation.

Love can be so blissful and then be a bitch that bites you till nothing is left but your bones and a crushed heart, but without love there will always be an empty void in you LIKE WTF!!!! Friends also play a very important role in life and make a whole lot of differents on everything that you so and about to do, I am thankful for all of my friends and what they have brought to my life.

I need to start making a list all of the things I want to do before I turn 30, and I got to make happened.

MY 25^th Birthday wish is to be treated like a princess for a week, to be free from pain and all the heartaches around me.

Bidding Good Bye To The last 5Year’s++ Half Of My Life

10 Sept 2006- 30 November 2011

I am so sorry baby that it had to come to and end this way. You lost the love that loved you the most, and now you want me one more time but it’s too late. I loved you with all my heart I poured every inch or my energy and heart into the relationship we once had. You took me for granted, said hurtful things and kept pushing me away. Why did it take you so long to realize that I was the one for you, the one who could love you for all that you were. So now don’t come back for me, don’t come back at all and hurt me any deeper.

I wish you would have realized all this very much earlier and done something to fix it, now it’s too late to fix anything. So please stop trying because I truly believe you will be much happier with someone else. I don’t want to be the reason for your hurt and pain anymore, I loved you more then you will ever know. I need to stop being selfish as you once claimed it and let you move on and find someone who can treat you the way you want and need. Finally you’re getting the wish you always wanted, so be happy with it. It may be the hardest thing I will ever do but I got to do it. Only god will know and be my witness how much it ache’s me to say good bye to everything we build and have but it has to be done. It will always leave a huge scar in my life knowing that this could have work if only your saw what I saw and believed in.

I been neglected and hurt by your actions, which made it easy for me to accept someone else in my life. It may seem cruel to others that I am moving on in such a short time from the period of our break up, but I have found someone who can make laugh, listen, accept me for me and treat me right. I know you will find someone who can bring all the happiness in your life as well, I truly hope you be happy for me and find your very own happiness as well.

Lots of Love,

Your Munchkin

August Bad Bad Month

August is such a bad month, 1st up I was admitted to the Hospital due to Appendix. Was a really scary time for me being the 1st time having surgery and all.

Then Hubby has a small accident while trying to exit the round-about and dented the front of our car.

Then  people broke into our house, thank god they did not get to take anything as I came down just in time to scream. They were so daring as to break in at broad day light 11.50 am, all our neighbour were home and assume we were rearranging our furniture and so did we at 1st.

 

 

 

I will just let the picture do the rest of the talking.

My Very 1st Operation

I woke up at 2 am and flt the acute pain at the lower abdomen and could sleep, sit or walk it was so pain. But some how i force myself to sleep, I was admitted to the hospital somewhere last month due to acute lower abdomen pain. Hubby rushed me to the clinic and the doctor did some test but was inclusive, and to us to go to the emergency room. So hubby then rushed me to Subang Jaya Medical Center (SJMC), just before reaching the emergency room I was puking and nearly fainted.

Then the nurse assisted me and made me lied down the bed, this is my first time so i was scared and getting chills all over. But the service was bad I had to was so long in pain before then conducted ultrasound and blood test. They had to put me on drips, I am like so afraid of needles and OMG it hurts. Soon after the test and all the doctor came and saw me, told me I need surgery and they were not sure whats wrong. So they were basically were going to perform exploration surgery and they were going to do it any time now. I was in shock everything was moving so fast, they admitted me and brought me up to the wad. Pitty hubby had to do all the documentation form for admitting, getting GL from the insurances company, calling my HR at work and so forth.

Once I was in the wad they got me changed in to the hospital gown and took me down to the operation room, I was wheeled her and there and my heart was pounding so fast. I was scared but seeing hubby beside me was a big comfort, once we reach the room in front of the operation room hubby was block from entering at his point I was all alone, cold, scared and in massive pain. Then anesthetic came and saw me, once this happened everything hit me OMG its happening.

After I was pumped with antibiotics drip, which made my veins cold and my body shivering I was wheeled into the operation teater. As soon I was wheeled in every thing happened so fast, they were moving me prepping me and covering me with layers of blanket to keep me warm. Then they put on the oxygen mask and told me to breath in as much as I can, suddenly he injected in to my drip line some medicines OMG HURTS LIKE MAD I was shouting and a few seconds later I was passed out.

When I woke up, I was being transferred to my bed in the ward. I cold hear voices of people around me talking but was so drowsy. Then i fell bad into my deep sleep and woke to see hubby, hubby's mum and dad came to visit me. Hubby sent them back and came to keep me company for the night, I woke up many times in pain paging the nurse. They gave me many many pain killers, I was high from all the medication and less in pain.

Thur out my period of admission at the hospital, every time they came to check on me the questions they will ask is as follows:-

a) Have you passed motion?

b) Have you peed?

c) Got fever?

d) Have you eaten?

 Sighss I guess it their job, but I was so sick and tired and yet I have to answer all this questions, finally i got discharge and got 2 weeks MC.

P/S: Hubby thanks for being there with me during the whole process and never leaving my sight, I love you so much <3 <3 <3 <3 <3.

Office and Politics.

As many of you know every office will have some kind of politic and back stabbing bitches. I have work in many different office and working environment, but this is the worst by yet. It seems like the more bigger the corporation, the more advance and well known is the company the more screwed up are the politics and the people in it.

The weird thing I don't get is people are educated and yet they behave like 9 years old, politics are the worst game you want to play. I believe people who play politics are people who are unsecure, mentally ill and has no confidents in their own self. To me all this is a waste of time getting involve in it.

I have learned a very important lesson and its we come to work not find friends or to please people, we are at work to gain knowledge and money and if on the way we do make any friends then we know they are real friends. Cause they have not inflected anything or do anything that has caused you to not trust or hate them.

The Rich & FamouS

Its weird how one moment you can be standing on top of the world and the next your below it. People sometimes think being rich and wonderful is the only thing they need, but did they stop and reflect back on their lives?? Do they have love? warmth?

As we seen on tv shows, when people get rich and wealthy they forget everything. They forget their parents, god and anyone relativity close to them. This is actually sad but it happened.

Is money everything?

To me I rather just do well for myself and have all the love, warmth and security.

What if….

It’s been a whole week now that I have been working on this matter and I been pondering what if something you been building all this while just collapsed??

TO me I will be like WHAT THE FUCK!!! I put so much in it, invest so much there must be something that I can do to make things right. Hmm but is there actually??

Sometime things happened and we can fix it all we need it some effort and courage to face whatever the outcome is. Need to put in 100% and be strong no matter what.

My New Colleagues

Here are the pictures to introduces my new office colleagues, a few of them only. Cause some were no present during James & MAx's Birthday. Owh yea this picture was taken during his birthday celebration at Kelantan Delight, Sooka. That post will next.

Soo Yin + Max

The love birds of the office.

Jennifer + Li Yen

Clock wise

Jeannie, Jennifer, LiYen, Me, Sham, Jenny

Clock Wise

LiYen, John, Jennifer, Chin, Me, Shuji, James

P/s: I know I look fat so zip it!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A new Chapter in life….

On the 19 of May 2008 at 4.00 p.m, marked a new chapter in our life and relationship. Why ?? As my previous post stated we have moved to KUALA LUMPUR, and have officially become KL-LITES ( as a friend of mine say it ), life here is much more different then Johor. The process of unpacking and settling in our new house, seriously it’s not an easy thing to do.

We moved in our new house on the 19 of May and hubby started work on the 20 of May 2008, but our furniture only arrived the same day hubby started work. oh wait guess what the lorry driver was such an asshole I tell you, they arrived at our premises and started to make so much of noise asking us to pay more, and if we don’t they are just going to leave it downstairs at the walk way. I got so pissed when they said that, what else I called up the boss and gave him a piece of my mind and what I got out of it I got free man power to carry all my things up to my apartment. Not forgetting J.R who came and help us, moved. Thanks a lot god forsaken brother.

Right now marks 2 months we been in KUALA LUMPUR, and we haven’t gotten the time to go out or do anything. We only got to use some of the facilities at our place after 1 month.
Alright that’s all for now, but before that here are some picture of what our Apartment surrounding looks like from our balcony.

+ I hate, I hate and I hate +

Suck up biatches!!!I just hate people who likes to sucking up to one just so the can get what they want, I personally think people like this have no life on their own and are very pathetic.

Stupid bosses!!!
My boss constantly finds other peoples fault when she her self is not showing a good example, how can she tell us what is right and wrong. I find people like this stupid!!!!

Faull words!!
I hate people who uses bad Faull words towards love ones, not only I find it rude but also extremely hurting. Moreover is kind of rude right??

Being on a diet!!
I have been on a diet because not only we can eat all the tempting fating food, but we must watch people around us enjoy eating it while we just sallow our saliva.

I hate being force!!
I don’t like to do things when I am force. It just gets on my nerves.

I have being rushed!!
This one thing I hate so much when I am getting ready people pushes me to hurry up, I really can’t take it really gets on my nerves.
Double faced people!!I hate people who are double faced bitches, how can they live to be like that I Just don’t get it. No wonder people like this don’t have many friends.

I hate roaches!!If I do even get a glimpse of it, I will start to scream or even jump up a chair. It’s so scary!!! OK fine at least to me it is.

Hehhehe… I know you all will be like WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THIS GIRL?? Cant she blog about something else?? I am so sorry but I wanted to do a post which reveals

Pirated VCD / DVD seller!!!

Yesterday after work I rushed to Plaza Pelangi which is in Jaybee town, to change a DVD called THE L WORD which I bought from there. As soon as arrived we went straight to the shop, and I told him that disc 3 is spoil the disc can’t be read. Then he started to search for a replacement, finally said that particular disc got no more stock. OK fine I told them to refund my money back since I am coming from far not from nearby this area. Then they told me to change to a different movie instead because there is no stock for the one I want and I said no I don’t want to and why should I!!! Then I started to get really pissed when I had to repeatedly tell him that I already have all the lattes DVD, and why should I change. So I demanded for my money back at this point I started to raise my voice a bit, and then he tells me to wait for a few days till they get the stock. So I explained to him nicely that I am coming from far, and I don’t want to wait so can I have my money back.

Then they asked me to wait for awhile, so I said OK. I don’t know where he went and what he did to get the DVD's. So when he came back he wanted to hand me over the new DVD I told to test it first!!! And guess what it still could not be read, so I said I want my money back now. See how they tried to play games just so they don’t have to return my money!!! I was so pissed at them, to tell you guys the truth I was at the verge of saying return my money or I call the cops * But I didn’t do it OK!!!*.

Then he tells me that once the money is already in the cash register it can’t be taken out, then I said it is not my fault that your DVD is spoiled. So I kept on demanding for my money in front of his other customers, till some of them walked away from his shop. Then he kept on saying no till my voice got really loud, then his partner in crime open the cash register and took the money and return it back to me. I took the money and walk away from the shop cursing him in every way I could think of. There is no such thing as he can’t return my money back, it’s not like I didn’t return all the DVD’s purchased I did. So what the FU**!!!!

Up till now I am still so pissed at those tow monkeys. Grhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
One thing is for sure I will never ever go to that shop ever again, but i will still support pirated DVD and VCD or even mp3. heheh :p

House hunting….

Yes indeed we are planning to move to a new house soon, hopefully by end of the month. This whole past week we been looking high and low for a suitable house, We been driving round and round so many housing area, until people started to look at us differently like we are going to kidnap their child or plan a robbery.

The best part was when we were driving around there was this guy looking at us one kind so we kind stare back at him. Then only to realize he was one of the house owners that we when and saw, then we started to laugh and laugh. But oh well.

Today marks the 3rd day we been looking around, hopefully we will find one that suits our needs. You guys pray for us OK, hopefully we will find one quick. I want to move out by end of this month, that's my goal....help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..........

There are some picture will post it up later.

Make it clap...make it clap....

Hmm I was just remembering something a colleague of mine telling me, when some guys are having sex they like to use this sentence “make it clap baby, make it clap”. I was just thinking it’s kind of funny but to them maybe it’s a turn on. Opps I know you all must be wondering MAKE WHAT CLAP right? It’s actually the behind part of you body, I know you know what I mean.

Anyhow I am not planning to turn my blog into porn site as said by my friend just sharing with you guys what is on my mind. Anyhow have you guys ever experience any of this weird sentences or words in bed??

One more thing I will need as much help with this question.

Is it wrong or right to be sexually active??

The worst experience ever!!!

The worst clinic experience ever, last week hubs and I went to the doctors and guess what?? We had to wait like freaking 2 hours before it was our turn. I was so pissed at everything at that very moment even now just thinking about it.

Then....

Remembering back the good old days…it was only long wait’s when we are seeking medical attention from a government hospital or clinic’s. Now even private clinic’s and hospitals are as bad, you guys imagine this situation. You freaking having and asthma attack and yet you still have to wait for you turn due to the clinic insufficient asthma machine, so they make you wait while the other patient who is not is really indeed of the it pump’s up his nose with a big grin on his face. I nearly walk out of the clinic but thinking that we really need to see a doctor so we stayed.

I am not so sure weather we will ever go back to that clinic again, the service is darn bad I mean like the worst and on top of that they are very slow I mean very very slow in everything. Example registration will take them ages just o get your card and talking about medicine dispenser department is worst. After seeing the doctor you have to wait another half an hour *half an hour shouting my lungs out, L *just to get your medicine like WTF right??

Anyways that all for now.

+ LiFe +

Everything in life dose not come easy,

not matter how hard we try.

Now with that said I really need to pull my self together,

need to priorities things.

Most importantly I need to do some life altering changes, and

I know it going to be good for me and everyone around me.

-daa-