A Life Lesson On Relationships

There’s always a lesson to be learned when you’re in a relationship, the lessons maybe good or bad either way it will only make your next relationship better. Each relationship will have its own flaws and uncountable amount of happiness shared, but the lessons you learn from you previous relationships will only help to make things better. Memories are one of the best things that you will ever take away from a relationship, just remember the good ones to play over and over again in your mind, as for the negative once should be thrown far-far away even thou you remember every single bad moment. What ever that we been thru love is always wonderful and a part of us always wants to do it over and over again so never regret for falling in love and wanting to do it all over again as its one of the best gifts in life.

What I have learned from all that’s happened lately is never take your partner, husband, wife, girlfriend, boyfriend and etc ever for granted. At a certain point of your relationship you will start to get comfortable and forget to take care of yourself and your partner, you let lose and forget to care. When this happens it will take a great toll on your relationship even without you realizing its happening. Being comfortable has its areas not everything is meant to be shared, some things are best kept low and meant to be the small surprises a relationship can offer. Taking someone for granted is like saying directly to the person you don’t matter no more to me and I don’t need to impress you anymore. The dating game is fun and every relationship should be practicing and maintaining it no matter how long you have been together. Having mutual friends and hanging out together in a big group once awhile is always good, because there are things about our partner that maybe our friends know and we don’t and can help us to understand better.

As for my relationship it ended because the both of us got too comfortable and forgotten to care and make things between us exciting. Not to mention the things we did not bother to discuss or work it out cause we both always assumed that we won’t leave and being busy with our work and business. Relationship takes a lot of work and communication without either of this it’s hard to build a solid foundation. Communication is a key to a long lasting relationship cause we must be able to share and talk about things that worries us openly with our partner. No doubt we have been thru a lot and have managed to make it thru it all the obstacles, but somehow we as human manage to break love we build. What I feel now is like losing a part of me that I want back badly but won’t be able to patch it into a perfect piece, so giving it up is the best option then suffering or hurting each other just because we like each others company. It’s a sad situation but it has to be done before we landed up back in the same situation and feel even worst.

Everyone around us is still hoping we reconcile and get back together, because they say we made a great couple and have all the things needed to make a relationship work. Everyone is giving their opinion about the relationship but no one has stop to think what they should really do for us is just to be there in case we needed to talk or a shoulder to lean on. Yes no doubt we were could get along perfectly, compromise on many level, meet each other expectation and had the same plan for future. There is a part of me that wishes I could just could go back and change the things that made things to reach this level so no of this would have happened, but there is a saying that all things happens for a reason. I believe this test came to see how we would handle it and how strong our love was unfortunately we both failed miserably and allowed it to reach to this.

I love you more then I could ever imagine, but now I can see I have to let you go because I been proven wrong thinking that we “US” deserve another chance and we could make it. It hurts like F**King hell but it’s so clear we both have moved on in our own way, coming to a point we both don’t trust each other is for sure not a good sign to be trying to fix “US” again. I know the mistakes we made is mutual so there is no one really to be blame for us breaking what we have it happened mutually without us realizing it. It’s so sad to see “US” come to this but it’s far too late to fix anything anymore.

I love you my dear and I hope we both will find eternal happiness. :(

Kek Batik / Marie Fudge Cake

Makes one loaf

Guys feel free to try my worlds famous Fudge Cake :)

[Ingredients]

100g (3/4 cup) milo *
25g (1/4 cup) cocoa powder *
125ml (1/2 cup) boiling water
190g (3/4 cup) butter, cut into large chunks
200g (1/2 tin) sweetened condensed milk
80g (1/2 cup) white granulated sugar
5 eggs, lightly beaten
1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract

250g (1 packet) Arnott’s Marie biscuits

* You may adjust the amount of milo and cocoa powder to your taste, for example 1/2 cup milo and 1/2 cup cocoa powder.

[Preparation]

1. Roughly break each biscuits into quarters, set aside. Line the base and two long sides of a 23cm x 9cm x 7cm deep loaf tin (or other loaf tin with a capacity of at least 5 cups or 1.25L) with baking paper, lightly grease the inside of the tin so the paper sticks to the tin, extending paper 2-3cm above edge of tin. Grease or line both short sides with a small piece of baking paper.

2. Slowly add boiling water to milo and cocoa in a saucepan, stirring vigorously until it is smooth. Add butter, sweetened condensed milk, sugar, lightly beaten eggs and vanilla to the saucepan.

3. Place over moderate heat and cook, stirring all the time with a whisk or a spoon, until you feel the bottom starts to thicken, about 5 minutes.

4. Turn heat down to low, and continue to cook, stirring without stopping, for about another 20 minutes, or until a thick custard forms.

5. Transfer the thick custard to a large mixing bowl, add quartered biscuits. Mix until all the biscuits are coated with the custard.

6. Transfer mixture to the prepared tin. Press down firmly so there are no air pockets in the mixture. Bang the tin on the bench a couple of times to settle the mixture, fold the paper extensions over the top and press down to even the surface. Then let cool to the touch.

7. Cover with cling film and place into the refrigerator to chill for at least 4 hours, or preferably overnight.

8. When the cake is firm, use the paper extension as handle to pull the cake out of the tin (you might need to loosen the paper from the sides of the tin first by sliding a knife between the paper lining and the sides of the tin). Slice and serve with coffee or tea.

My Heart Is Broken

Just heard about this song and it speaks to me so loud. I love all thier songs.

Enjoy guys.

I will wander 'til the end of time, torn away from you.

I pulled away to face the pain.

I close my eyes and drift away.

Over the fear that I will never find

A way to heal my soul.

And I will wander 'til the end of time

Torn away from you.

My heart is broken

Sweet sleep, my dark angel

Deliver us from sorrow's hold

(Over my heart).

I can't go on living this way

But I can't go back the way I came

Chained to this fear that I will never find

A way to heal my soul

And I will wander 'til the end of time

Half alive without you

My heart is broken

Sweet sleep, my dark angel

Deliver us

Change - open your eyes to the light

I denied it all so long, oh so long

Say goodbye, goodbye

My heart is broken

Release me, I can't hold on

Deliver us

My heart is broken

Sweet sleep, my dark angel

Deliver us

My heart is broken

Sweet sleep, my dark angel

Deliver us from sorrow's hold

"Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it... It really is worth fighting for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more." Erica Jong

i couldn't agree more with this quote...

so i taught i will share it with your guys.

Birthday Mumbles

Ok so it 19 January 2012 and that time has come where I become one year older. The past year and coming into the near year I lost everything I was so familiar, comfortable and loved. But I believe it’s made me stronger by helping me be more matured and realized that I need to love myself and stop letting people step or take advantage of my kindness. Sometimes you got to lose the most important thing in your life at the moment in order to see the bigger picture and the flow will be natural. Its was naturally hard at the beginning and it hurt like hell but having friends and family that I could count on made a whole lot of different on how I handle the whole situation.

Love can be so blissful and then be a bitch that bites you till nothing is left but your bones and a crushed heart, but without love there will always be an empty void in you LIKE WTF!!!! Friends also play a very important role in life and make a whole lot of differents on everything that you so and about to do, I am thankful for all of my friends and what they have brought to my life.

I need to start making a list all of the things I want to do before I turn 30, and I got to make happened.

MY 25^th Birthday wish is to be treated like a princess for a week, to be free from pain and all the heartaches around me.

Set Fire To The Rain

I let it fall, my heart,

And as it fell you rose to claim it

It was dark and I was over

Until you kissed my lips and you saved me

My hands, they're strong

But my knees were far too weak

To stand in your arms

Without falling to your feet

But there's a side to you

That I never knew, never knew.

All the things you'd say

They were never true, never true,

And the games you play

You would always win, always win.

[Chorus:]

But I set fire to the rain,

Watched it pour as I touched your face,

Well, it burned while I cried

'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

When I lay with you

I could stay there

Close my eyes

Feel you here forever

You and me together

Nothing is better

'Cause there's a side to you

That I never knew, never knew,

All the things you'd say,

They were never true, never true,

And the games you play

You would always win, always win.

[Chorus:]

But I set fire to the rain,

Watched it pour as I touched your face,

Well, it burned while I cried

'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

I set fire to the rain

And I threw us into the flames

Where I felt something die

'Cause I knew that there was the last time, the last time!

Sometimes I wake up by the door,

That heart you caught must be waiting for you

Even now when we're already over

I can't help myself from looking for you.

[Chorus:]

I set fire to the rain,

Watched it pour as I touched your face,

Well, it burned while I cried

'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name

I set fire to the rain,

And I threw us into the flames

Where I felt something die

'Cause I knew that there was the last time, the last time, oh, oh!

Let it burn

Oh oh ohhhh

Let it burn

Oh oh ohhhh

Let it burn

Oh oh ohhhh

Bidding Good Bye To The last 5Year’s++ Half Of My Life

10 Sept 2006- 30 November 2011

I am so sorry baby that it had to come to and end this way. You lost the love that loved you the most, and now you want me one more time but it’s too late. I loved you with all my heart I poured every inch or my energy and heart into the relationship we once had. You took me for granted, said hurtful things and kept pushing me away. Why did it take you so long to realize that I was the one for you, the one who could love you for all that you were. So now don’t come back for me, don’t come back at all and hurt me any deeper.

I wish you would have realized all this very much earlier and done something to fix it, now it’s too late to fix anything. So please stop trying because I truly believe you will be much happier with someone else. I don’t want to be the reason for your hurt and pain anymore, I loved you more then you will ever know. I need to stop being selfish as you once claimed it and let you move on and find someone who can treat you the way you want and need. Finally you’re getting the wish you always wanted, so be happy with it. It may be the hardest thing I will ever do but I got to do it. Only god will know and be my witness how much it ache’s me to say good bye to everything we build and have but it has to be done. It will always leave a huge scar in my life knowing that this could have work if only your saw what I saw and believed in.

I been neglected and hurt by your actions, which made it easy for me to accept someone else in my life. It may seem cruel to others that I am moving on in such a short time from the period of our break up, but I have found someone who can make laugh, listen, accept me for me and treat me right. I know you will find someone who can bring all the happiness in your life as well, I truly hope you be happy for me and find your very own happiness as well.

Lots of Love,

Your Munchkin