+ mY sOnG dEdIcAtIoN +

I am dedicating this song playing in my

blog is for my boo....

+ Listen +

Listen,

To the song here in my heart

A melody I've start

But can't complete.

Listen,

to the sound from deep within,

It's only beginning

To find release

Oh,

the time has come

for my dreams to be heard

They will not be pushed aside and turned

Into your own

all cause you won't

Listen....

Listen,

I am alone at a crossroads,

I'm not at home, in my own home

And I tried and tried

To say whats on my mind

You should have known

Oh,

Now I'm done believing you

You don't know what I'm feeling

I'm more than what,

you made of me

I followed the voice,

you gave to me

But now I gotta find,

my own..

You should have listened

There is someone here inside,

Someone I'd thought had died

So long ago

Oh I'm screaming out, for my dreams to be heard

They will not be pushed aside or worse

Into your own

All cause you won't

Listen...

I don't know where I belong

But I'll be moving on,

If you don't....

If you won't....

LISTEN!!!...

To the song here in my heart

A melody I've start

But I will complete

Oh,

Now I'm done believing you,

You don't know what I'm feeling

I'm more than what, you made of me

I followed the voice, you think you gave to me

But now I gotta find, my own..

my own...

+ sOmEtHiNg SpEcIAl I sHaRe +

I have never really found anything as good as this, but lately everything in my life has drastically changed to be something better. Despite a few plus and minus points included.

As all of you know I used to be a Kuala Lumpur chic, now I have shifted to Johor. So all of you know I have never regretted it not even one moment. Coming here is probably that wisest choice I have made ever since my life changing incident. No matter how weird it seems to my friends at first but I am really glad they supported me.

This was an unplanned meet I had with D, yet the best ever. We never really knew what we both were getting into besides living together and sharing everything, but thanks god we managed to survive the challenge. Life for the both of us had changed over the months and everything so far has made a huge impact on us. From the starting till now we have done many crazy stuff.

D I love you, thanks for everything you have done for me. Lets continue to do so till old age, and build many unforgettable memories.

+ My OnE LAsT cRy +

Have you ever fell so lonely? Look left and right and notice there is no one there accept yourself. It’s like moment like this you wish you had somewhere to go or some one to hold and share you feelings with. For me I have always been in that kind of situation and yearn for approval form others in everything.

Now its just going to be one last cry for me would and it would sound like this, I share dreams and broken hearts in a dark conner. I got to put it all out of my mind, I know I got to be strong because I know life goes on because it dose. I know I can’t keep hold on wishing that everything would better but work on it, sitting all alone wishing all of could disappear. My one last cry before I leave it all behind, I guess I am done with all this. I am down to my last cry my one last cry, I am going to try my hardest to forget it all.

Knowing now I have found a better pace to settle on, the level that I have work hark for. Nothing can really hurt me, as much as it used to before. I never asked for all this to happen to me, I never really planned how my life would go by each day. I just live it day by day hoping that it will all change, because I strongly believe that everyone has a happy ending. If not a happy ending at least it would be much much better as it is now.

Life has many teaching and it’s a never ending journey or learning, GOD has his own way of teaching us and guiding us in life. We don’t really have a reason to blame anyone for mistakes and hurts we face, because the truth is we have no CHOICE.

I never ever taught or asked from god to be like this in anyway, I never knew my life would turn out to be like this in anyway. Seriously trust me that I really wish I had some hint on what life will be like in the future or maybe just tomorrow. Wouldn’t it be fun? But on second hand it would seriously be scary.

I do believe my life has tremendously changed for the better and I really thank god for it, also to all my friends that has really been there for me and hear me out every time without fail.

Stress and me!!

We are all human and many times we are faced with a lot of pressure and stress. Then without us noticing it we let go on our love ones. Not that we want to but situations sometime forces us to do so.

Sometimes we act like nothing is bothering us or we act to make it all seem OK, but the more we do so the worst it becomes. I have tried it many times but sometimes it makes me wonder why can’t I just eliminate it form my conscious and make it stop bothering me. But we can do that we don’t have the power to make things not happen in our life. Then when we act on it things lend up getting worst and it hurts even more, so that’s even waste of time. All we can really do is deal with and release it in a positive way right?

P/s: To all the people who have been affected by this I am really sorry from the bottom of my heart.

The Next Day!!!

The next day after the trauma I had with the iguana, I was once again shocked by another incident.

D and I were lying down on the bean bags while watching television, suddenly a spider fell on. I started to scream and jumped on the sofa, but seriously it was really big and scary. D stared laughing like mad at that’s not fair. I was still terrified by the iguana incident and now that, what a week??

The next day I followed D out when she left for work, I drove up to Dunking Donuts and had breakfast and chill. The later in the afternoon I joined D for lunch at the airport, then I did’t want to go home after that so I when to Coffee Bean. I sat there and surf the net till D finished work, lately that’s been my routine.

This is what it roughly looked like..

one day at home...

Oh m god people guess what yesterday there was iguana in my room, I was totally freaking out like mad.

And this is what it looked like...Gross!!!

This is what really happened, I was getting ready to go meet D for lunch like normal. After having a shower I walked into the room to put on some clothes. Then as I was heading to the dressing table area to notice something brown and moving, I started to scream and the thing jumped towards me. I freaked out like mad, I ran out of the room pulling the door along as I smashed my baby finger in between the door.

Then I called D and stared to cry, as you all already know I am a coward when it comes to all this creepy crawly creatures. D was busy so I just grab what ever I could find and walked out of the house, straight got into the car and still freaking out.

After lunch D and Shorty came to check out the situation that I was freaking out like mad. After they search like mad finally they found it at the back of the cupboard and it was big. They could not do anything as well, so we all headed back to the airport. I hanged at coffee bean and waited for D to finish work, D was going to bring some people to get rid of the thingy.

Then after work there were these three guys who came to get rid of that creature. The whole neighborhood knew what happened to us, cause everyone is like so “ KEPOH and NOISY “.

Just so all of you know I was all alone when all of this happened and thank god I did’t have to stay at home whit that thingy. When it was time to sleep I was still traumatize with that incident, it was quiet hard to sleep with was happening. Somehow we manage to sleep till morning. What a day it was.

tHiS iS hOw I DisApPeAr!!!

Go!
To the un-explain
the unforgivable drain all the blood
and give the kids a show
By streetlight this dark night
a séances down below
there's things that I have done
you never
Should ever know.

And without you is how I disappear
and live my life alone forever now.
And without you is how I disappear
and live my life alone forever now.

Who walks among the famous living dead
Drowns all the boys and girls inside your bed
And if you could talk to me
Tell me if it's so
That all the good girls go to heaven
Well heaven knows.

That without you is how I disappear
and live my life alone forever now.
And without you is how I disappear
and live my life alone forever now.

Can you hear me cry out to you,
words I thought I'd choke on
Figure out I'm really not so with you anymore
I'm just a ghost

so I can't hurt you anymore,
so I can't hurt you anymore!

And now, you wanna see how far down i can sink?LET ME GO!

So you can
Well now so
You can
I'm so far away from you
Well now so
You can

And without you is how I disappear,
and without you is how I disappear.

Forever
Forever now

wEeKend aT K.L

Last weekend we went down to Kuala Lumpur and spend half our weekend there. We were there to settle some problems and have a little bit of fun before we headed back to Johor.

We left Johor on Thursday night at about 9 plus and arrived at 12, we searched for a place to stay for about 2 hours. Then finally we checked in at Grand Season’ hotel, we were so tried. Poor D must have been really tired especially when D had to drive, after a long day at work.

When we checked in we were death hungry so we oddered room services and pig out before heading to bed. We got the executive room which had a computer and internet access, the television had nothing much to watch as they didn’t have Astro in all the rooms.

The next day we woke up early surprisingly knowing us, then had breakfast before my heading onto the roads. Then we meet up with Alexis for lunch, after lunch we headed to my old school to collect my certificates. Surprisingly my old ugly school turned out to be so nice, clean and beautiful.

The Entrance pass to Karaoke!!A chop So funNy!!

After that we went for karaoke and then headed to my mums house, I bought her a cake and left it there. I had just a short chat with her and left, as you all already know the longer I talk to her the worst situation will become. Then I walked away heading to D and Alexis, even such a short chat with my mum she still managed to hurt my feelings. That’s the power she has against me and she always manages to hurt me some way or another.

Then we all headed to Times Square, we taught of watching a movie at the IMAX theater but there weren’t any nice movies to watch. Then we had dinner at Kenny Rogers and walked around before we headed back.

At Kenny Roger's while waitting for our food!!

D dose even care what we were doing..people the back of us they were doing the same thing.

The next day after checked out we headed to Bukit Bintang and did some shopping, actually quiet a lot of stuff we bought before heading to Mid Valley. D wanted to go there for the Digital Fair, when we got there it wasn’t what we expected. Being disappointed and hungry we dined at Madam Kwan’s. Then we decided just to hit the roads back to Johor Baharu. We drove in such a heavy rain but it was so cold and yet romantic.

This pOoR cLueLess Man!!!

Last Friday after dinner we decided to head to GIANT to get cats food, on our way there we saw this white man pushing the airport trolley on the road. Then I told D hey check out that guy, where dose he think he is going with the airport trolley. As many of you know we stay near the airport and D works there, so D called some people up and in the end we had to solve the case.

So we drove up a head and waited for him at the SOFITEL HOTEL, when he reached it became something big and all the people knew about him pushing the trolley. It was such a chaos as no one is allowed to push the trolley out of the airport. When he finally reached D explain to him that he is not supposed to take the trolley out of the airport premises. Then he told us he ask the taxi drivers at the airport where is the nearest hotel around here, they told him this one and it was only 5 minutes away and the price was about RM 200 ++. That’s why he decided to walk to the hotel pushing all his stuff, but when he got there he felt cheated. The walk from the airport to hotel is around 25 minutes and all rooms’ starts from RM 350++.

So he decided to go back to the airport and spend the night there. So the hotel people took him back to the airport with the trolley. When he got there he wanted to sleep up stairs, unfortunately he can’t cause the upstairs area is only open when there are flights only. So we asked him weather he wanted to stay in a budget hotel and he said ok, then he headed to the taxi driver and asked them how much its going to cost him. The taxi driver was so rude and said he has to pay extra (RM 50) cause of his huge luggage. They treated him so badly so we decided to offer him a ride to the nearest budget hotel.

By the way he was a budget traveler, who is writing for the TIMES NEWSPAPER in Chicago. He writes the section on travel and living, we help him check in and we took of. The funniest part is the rude taxi driver taught D was a sweep taxi kind of person. The rude guy even treated to break our car windshield for offering the poor white guy a ride. We only did it out of courtesy think what would happen if we were in his shoes and people treated us like that.

So we can’t really blame people for saying Malaysian are rude, even if it was just one person it can really be a huge impact on a person especially outsiders. So c’mon people don’t treat people so bad if you don’t wan to be treated the same way, imagine us being in their place.

IS VISIT MALAYSIA YEAR 2007.