Superior Then Thou

I seriously can’t stand some people who feel they are better then the rest, I just feel like walking up to them and giving them a slap to shake that attitude off.

There is someone I know and she has grown close to me but she has that attitude and it’s driving me mad, I have told her million times but nothing has changed. Right now I have come to a point to where the hate feeling is developing and I know it’s bad, I can’t stand to see, talk to hear her opinions any longer.

I am finding away to tell her off but I just can’t seem to find the right words or way to do so, not forgetting how sensitive she is. The last time I tried to tell her she threw a fit and started to shout and scream at the top of her lungs. DAMMMM

LGBT ‘Not Protected By Federal Constitution’

I am speechless LGBT, has existed even before we know it. I know by religion is wrong, but the best way is just to leave it as it is and the government should focus on fixing other more important things in Malaysia.

This is just a bit of the whole article:-

“Article 8 of the Federal Constitution says there must be no discrimination of citizens in terms of religion or sex. ‘Sex’ has never been interpreted to mean sexual orientation; it has always been interpreted to mean either male or female, and they are [the only ones] protected by the constitution,” said Mashitah.

Read the rest here LGBT ‘not protected by Federal Constitution’ .

Communication

Everyday we communicate with people be it verbally or written with young, old, different languages and background. Some how we as human still find ways to communicate, but sometimes the most simplest thing is the hardest to communicate it across.

Sometime I don’t know what your problem is or why is it so hard for you’re to tell me the truth of what you feel or want?? I told you many times don’t until I start no to care or bother about you anymore. I been here for you far more then you have for me and anyone can testify to that cause its dam obvious, but yet you still do this.

I am getting bored with all this, can’t you just open up and tell me. I am simple you tell me what you expect and be transparent and don’t keep lingering around expecting for something more then I can give you cause I wont. If I think you are worth it I will try my level best to give all I can for you, I am easy that way. Show me, own up and be a rock not mud.

My heart was crush and shattered into a million pieces from my last love, it’s not easy to heal but thank god I am healing slowly and putting the pieces together back again, if I give my heart away again it has to be to someone who will care, appreciate and be there.

Healed

I do miss you I won’t lie but not as much as I use to, I do care and love you but not more then a friend. I was so stupid to think we could be friends after all that’s happened but I wont say never cause we can only plan but god knows better, so maybe one day we could. I feel a huge set of pain, feelings and fear being lifted off my chest, now I see the bigger picture and all that’s gone down.

“And I hope you find it,

What you're looking for

And I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be

And so much more

And I hope you're happy, wherever you are

I wanted you to know that

And nothing's gonna change that

And I hope you find it”

Life is becoming brighter and getting myself out there doing things I wanted to, going places I wanted to. Making new friends and improving myself is my new goal and target, I will work hard to achieve my goals.

Any to all my newly wed friends congratulations is in order, may you have eternal happiness and be bless with may cute babies. To my bestie thanks for choosing to be the godmother to your baby girl and I hope she likes all the gifts I got her ;)

Destress Moment in Office

When even I feel so stress in the office....

I will quickly open you tube and search for Ellen De videos, it is sure to crack me up....

This the video I watched today....

Regret

This is the feeling I am having, I just regret of how things turned out to be. Lately I have been missing D more then ever, there is this strong feeling of me wanting to hear, see and touch D. I have not had this feeling in awhile now but somehow I been feeling it hard and a lot lately.

Somehow I think I am regretting my decision of breaking up with her and causing her hurt. I know I should just forget it and move on but something within me which is making it hard to do it. I just want to have a nice long talk and giggles with D like we used to.

Sadden with all that’s happened I lost my best friend and comfort, I wish I could turn back time and make it all better. I will just remove one thing from my life and the whole situation will be fixed but there isn’t anything that can make it happen.

One thing I know for sure regret is deadly venom that takes over and controls you. I should have listen to myself and given time before making a decision.

This Blog Stays On

A few of my friends has been asking me why havent you deleted your blog?? So here is my answer.

I am not going to delet this blog, just because D and I are over it will seem so IMMATURE.

That was my past and will always be memories weather I like it or not, so deleting it dose not make it any better. But i will make some chnages to it whole layout and what I blog about.

50 Hot Destinations

Update, Still haven't finish covering all the place on the list yet :(
P/s: D and I are no longer together so I have to find a new travel buddy.
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Hey!!! Guys as you all know D and I, are into this whole visit Malaysia 2007. I did some research and my goal is to go to all this hot spot. Check out the list below, these places is suggested by Malaysian Tourism and Travelrama.

1. Danga Bay, Johor Baharu.

2. Tanjung Piai, Pontian.

3. Gunung Ledang, Johor.

4. Desaru, Kota Tinggi.

5. Hutan Lipur Jeram Tengkek, Jempol Negeri Sembilan.

6. Taman Peranginan Negara Port Dickson, Negeri Sembilan.

7. Istana Seri Menanti, Negeri Sembilan.

8. Nilai 3, Negeri Sembilan.

9. Waterfront, Labuan.

10. Padang Besar, Perlis.

11. Gunung Jerai, Kedah.

12. Menara Alor Star, Alor Star.

13. Kabel Gunung Machincang, Pulau Langkawi.

14. Pantai Cenang, Pulau Langkawi.

15. Batu Feringgi, Pulau Pinang.

16. Taman Negara, Pulau Pinang.

17. Pulau Jerejak, Pulau Pinang.

18. Tasik Kenyir, Terengganu.

19. Pulau Redang, Pahang.

20. Muzium Negeri Terengganu, Negeri Terengganu.

21. Gunung Stong, Dabong Kelantan.

22. Pantai Cahaya Bulan, Kelantan.

23. Pasar Besar Siti Khadijah, Kelantan.

24. Taman Mini Malaysia & Taman Mini ASEAN, Ayer Keroh Melaka.

25. Pantai Tanjung Bidara, Melaka.

26. A Famosa Bandar Hilir, Melaka.

27. Bukit Larut (Maxwell Hill), Taiping Perak.

28. Gua Tempurung, Gopeng Ipoh.

29. Pulau Pangkor, Lumut Ipoh.

30. Lembah Belum, Perak.

31. Kota Kinabalu, Sabah.

32. Hutan Rimba Tabin, Lahad Datu Sabah.

33. Pusat Orang Hutan Sepilok, Sandakan Sabah.

34. Taman Kinabalu, Sabah.

35. Kampung Budaya Sarawak, Santubong Sarawak.

36. Kuching, Sarawak.

37. Taman Negara Mulu, Sarawak.

38. Cameron Highlands, Pahang.

39. Genting Highlands, Pahang.

40. Taman Rimba Kenong, Pahang.

41. Pantai Teluk Chempedak, Kuantan Pahang.

42. Taman Botani, Putrajaya.

43. Taman Warisan Pertanian, Putrajaya.

44. Taman Wetland, Putrajaya.

45. Menara Berkembar Petronas (KLCC), Kuala Lumpur.

46. Pasar Seni, Kuala Lumpur.

47. Bukit Bintang, Kuala Lumpur.

48. Taman Alam, Kuala Selangor.

49. Sunway Lagoon, Kuala Lumpur.

50. Air Terjun Sungai Gabai, Hulu Langat.

I want really want to try accomplish all this place by Mac 2013, traveling is an awesome hobby to have..

Decisions...Decisions....

I wonder how far this new relationship I build can survive. Its been so rocky, unstable and many fights. Heartache is my constant companion lately, I just don't know what's going on in my mind and what I want.
　
When my old relationship came crashing down I immediately ran into a new one, just because I felt safe and happiness again. I think it was my mistake I should have let myself heal or cleared my mind before making a decision. Everything happened so fast and now when I look back seems like everything I am doing lately is so wrong.

So many things keep bothering me, makes me feel like I am nothing but a rug where I constantly let people step and bring me down. I just don't have the strength to fight or argue anymore, I just wanna be free and feel free. Just something I realize lately even thou you are happy there are some unhappiness that can destroy that unless you fully let if off you chest. I just need to let all of this off my chest. I really hope it can happen soon as I really can't take it anymore.

In my professional working life, I been doing really great lately and everything seems to be going my way. I just think I should do more to achieve more so I can set a great career growth path. But on the bright side I have a really great boss, a sporting and crazy one that is. She's been so supportive and courage in both my work and personal life. I think that the best one can hope for.

To be continued...

A Life Lesson On Relationships

There’s always a lesson to be learned when you’re in a relationship, the lessons maybe good or bad either way it will only make your next relationship better. Each relationship will have its own flaws and uncountable amount of happiness shared, but the lessons you learn from you previous relationships will only help to make things better. Memories are one of the best things that you will ever take away from a relationship, just remember the good ones to play over and over again in your mind, as for the negative once should be thrown far-far away even thou you remember every single bad moment. What ever that we been thru love is always wonderful and a part of us always wants to do it over and over again so never regret for falling in love and wanting to do it all over again as its one of the best gifts in life.

What I have learned from all that’s happened lately is never take your partner, husband, wife, girlfriend, boyfriend and etc ever for granted. At a certain point of your relationship you will start to get comfortable and forget to take care of yourself and your partner, you let lose and forget to care. When this happens it will take a great toll on your relationship even without you realizing its happening. Being comfortable has its areas not everything is meant to be shared, some things are best kept low and meant to be the small surprises a relationship can offer. Taking someone for granted is like saying directly to the person you don’t matter no more to me and I don’t need to impress you anymore. The dating game is fun and every relationship should be practicing and maintaining it no matter how long you have been together. Having mutual friends and hanging out together in a big group once awhile is always good, because there are things about our partner that maybe our friends know and we don’t and can help us to understand better.

As for my relationship it ended because the both of us got too comfortable and forgotten to care and make things between us exciting. Not to mention the things we did not bother to discuss or work it out cause we both always assumed that we won’t leave and being busy with our work and business. Relationship takes a lot of work and communication without either of this it’s hard to build a solid foundation. Communication is a key to a long lasting relationship cause we must be able to share and talk about things that worries us openly with our partner. No doubt we have been thru a lot and have managed to make it thru it all the obstacles, but somehow we as human manage to break love we build. What I feel now is like losing a part of me that I want back badly but won’t be able to patch it into a perfect piece, so giving it up is the best option then suffering or hurting each other just because we like each others company. It’s a sad situation but it has to be done before we landed up back in the same situation and feel even worst.

Everyone around us is still hoping we reconcile and get back together, because they say we made a great couple and have all the things needed to make a relationship work. Everyone is giving their opinion about the relationship but no one has stop to think what they should really do for us is just to be there in case we needed to talk or a shoulder to lean on. Yes no doubt we were could get along perfectly, compromise on many level, meet each other expectation and had the same plan for future. There is a part of me that wishes I could just could go back and change the things that made things to reach this level so no of this would have happened, but there is a saying that all things happens for a reason. I believe this test came to see how we would handle it and how strong our love was unfortunately we both failed miserably and allowed it to reach to this.

I love you more then I could ever imagine, but now I can see I have to let you go because I been proven wrong thinking that we “US” deserve another chance and we could make it. It hurts like F**King hell but it’s so clear we both have moved on in our own way, coming to a point we both don’t trust each other is for sure not a good sign to be trying to fix “US” again. I know the mistakes we made is mutual so there is no one really to be blame for us breaking what we have it happened mutually without us realizing it. It’s so sad to see “US” come to this but it’s far too late to fix anything anymore.

I love you my dear and I hope we both will find eternal happiness. :(

Kek Batik / Marie Fudge Cake

Makes one loaf

Guys feel free to try my worlds famous Fudge Cake :)

[Ingredients]

100g (3/4 cup) milo *
25g (1/4 cup) cocoa powder *
125ml (1/2 cup) boiling water
190g (3/4 cup) butter, cut into large chunks
200g (1/2 tin) sweetened condensed milk
80g (1/2 cup) white granulated sugar
5 eggs, lightly beaten
1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract

250g (1 packet) Arnott’s Marie biscuits

* You may adjust the amount of milo and cocoa powder to your taste, for example 1/2 cup milo and 1/2 cup cocoa powder.

[Preparation]

1. Roughly break each biscuits into quarters, set aside. Line the base and two long sides of a 23cm x 9cm x 7cm deep loaf tin (or other loaf tin with a capacity of at least 5 cups or 1.25L) with baking paper, lightly grease the inside of the tin so the paper sticks to the tin, extending paper 2-3cm above edge of tin. Grease or line both short sides with a small piece of baking paper.

2. Slowly add boiling water to milo and cocoa in a saucepan, stirring vigorously until it is smooth. Add butter, sweetened condensed milk, sugar, lightly beaten eggs and vanilla to the saucepan.

3. Place over moderate heat and cook, stirring all the time with a whisk or a spoon, until you feel the bottom starts to thicken, about 5 minutes.

4. Turn heat down to low, and continue to cook, stirring without stopping, for about another 20 minutes, or until a thick custard forms.

5. Transfer the thick custard to a large mixing bowl, add quartered biscuits. Mix until all the biscuits are coated with the custard.

6. Transfer mixture to the prepared tin. Press down firmly so there are no air pockets in the mixture. Bang the tin on the bench a couple of times to settle the mixture, fold the paper extensions over the top and press down to even the surface. Then let cool to the touch.

7. Cover with cling film and place into the refrigerator to chill for at least 4 hours, or preferably overnight.

8. When the cake is firm, use the paper extension as handle to pull the cake out of the tin (you might need to loosen the paper from the sides of the tin first by sliding a knife between the paper lining and the sides of the tin). Slice and serve with coffee or tea.

My Heart Is Broken

Just heard about this song and it speaks to me so loud. I love all thier songs.

Enjoy guys.

I will wander 'til the end of time, torn away from you.

I pulled away to face the pain.

I close my eyes and drift away.

Over the fear that I will never find

A way to heal my soul.

And I will wander 'til the end of time

Torn away from you.

My heart is broken

Sweet sleep, my dark angel

Deliver us from sorrow's hold

(Over my heart).

I can't go on living this way

But I can't go back the way I came

Chained to this fear that I will never find

A way to heal my soul

And I will wander 'til the end of time

Half alive without you

My heart is broken

Sweet sleep, my dark angel

Deliver us

Change - open your eyes to the light

I denied it all so long, oh so long

Say goodbye, goodbye

My heart is broken

Release me, I can't hold on

Deliver us

My heart is broken

Sweet sleep, my dark angel

Deliver us

My heart is broken

Sweet sleep, my dark angel

Deliver us from sorrow's hold

"Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it... It really is worth fighting for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more." Erica Jong

i couldn't agree more with this quote...

so i taught i will share it with your guys.

Birthday Mumbles

Ok so it 19 January 2012 and that time has come where I become one year older. The past year and coming into the near year I lost everything I was so familiar, comfortable and loved. But I believe it’s made me stronger by helping me be more matured and realized that I need to love myself and stop letting people step or take advantage of my kindness. Sometimes you got to lose the most important thing in your life at the moment in order to see the bigger picture and the flow will be natural. Its was naturally hard at the beginning and it hurt like hell but having friends and family that I could count on made a whole lot of different on how I handle the whole situation.

Love can be so blissful and then be a bitch that bites you till nothing is left but your bones and a crushed heart, but without love there will always be an empty void in you LIKE WTF!!!! Friends also play a very important role in life and make a whole lot of differents on everything that you so and about to do, I am thankful for all of my friends and what they have brought to my life.

I need to start making a list all of the things I want to do before I turn 30, and I got to make happened.

MY 25^th Birthday wish is to be treated like a princess for a week, to be free from pain and all the heartaches around me.

Set Fire To The Rain

I let it fall, my heart,

And as it fell you rose to claim it

It was dark and I was over

Until you kissed my lips and you saved me

My hands, they're strong

But my knees were far too weak

To stand in your arms

Without falling to your feet

But there's a side to you

That I never knew, never knew.

All the things you'd say

They were never true, never true,

And the games you play

You would always win, always win.

[Chorus:]

But I set fire to the rain,

Watched it pour as I touched your face,

Well, it burned while I cried

'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

When I lay with you

I could stay there

Close my eyes

Feel you here forever

You and me together

Nothing is better

'Cause there's a side to you

That I never knew, never knew,

All the things you'd say,

They were never true, never true,

And the games you play

You would always win, always win.

[Chorus:]

But I set fire to the rain,

Watched it pour as I touched your face,

Well, it burned while I cried

'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

I set fire to the rain

And I threw us into the flames

Where I felt something die

'Cause I knew that there was the last time, the last time!

Sometimes I wake up by the door,

That heart you caught must be waiting for you

Even now when we're already over

I can't help myself from looking for you.

[Chorus:]

I set fire to the rain,

Watched it pour as I touched your face,

Well, it burned while I cried

'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name

I set fire to the rain,

And I threw us into the flames

Where I felt something die

'Cause I knew that there was the last time, the last time, oh, oh!

Let it burn

Oh oh ohhhh

Let it burn

Oh oh ohhhh

Let it burn

Oh oh ohhhh

Bidding Good Bye To The last 5Year’s++ Half Of My Life

10 Sept 2006- 30 November 2011

I am so sorry baby that it had to come to and end this way. You lost the love that loved you the most, and now you want me one more time but it’s too late. I loved you with all my heart I poured every inch or my energy and heart into the relationship we once had. You took me for granted, said hurtful things and kept pushing me away. Why did it take you so long to realize that I was the one for you, the one who could love you for all that you were. So now don’t come back for me, don’t come back at all and hurt me any deeper.

I wish you would have realized all this very much earlier and done something to fix it, now it’s too late to fix anything. So please stop trying because I truly believe you will be much happier with someone else. I don’t want to be the reason for your hurt and pain anymore, I loved you more then you will ever know. I need to stop being selfish as you once claimed it and let you move on and find someone who can treat you the way you want and need. Finally you’re getting the wish you always wanted, so be happy with it. It may be the hardest thing I will ever do but I got to do it. Only god will know and be my witness how much it ache’s me to say good bye to everything we build and have but it has to be done. It will always leave a huge scar in my life knowing that this could have work if only your saw what I saw and believed in.

I been neglected and hurt by your actions, which made it easy for me to accept someone else in my life. It may seem cruel to others that I am moving on in such a short time from the period of our break up, but I have found someone who can make laugh, listen, accept me for me and treat me right. I know you will find someone who can bring all the happiness in your life as well, I truly hope you be happy for me and find your very own happiness as well.

Lots of Love,

Your Munchkin